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Blah, blah, blah

In the past three weeks, I have sat down exactly once to write a blog post. I made it about three paragraphs and gave up. Almost every night, though, or in the wee hours of the morning, I write an entire blog post in my  head. I think “Yes, that’s great! I will write it down in the morning”, and then I don’t do it. 

Last night I was reading a blog post that a friend commented on. I don’t even remember the name of the blog, but her husband had “hacked” into her blog and left a really sweet video message as her blog post for the day. She had several comments stating how much her blog meant to her readers. I thought “my blog will never mean that much”. 

Gulp.

Yes, I did. No matter how many times Lisa Jo has told me that MY words matter, I still fall victim to not believing that they do.

My brother died, but everyone has dealt with death at some time. I am pregnant, but a lot of mothers have been. I have a difficult child, like a thousand other people. I love my husband to the moon and back just like so many other women that I know! Why would I write about any of that? It’s all been said before by bigger and better bloggers. 

It hasn’t been said by me though. It hasn’t been typed from my computer, felt with MY emotions, told with my voice or read by my audience. (and no matter how small the readership is, each and every person who reads here matters) In the sea of a thousand other bloggers, my perceptions and experiences DO matter, because they are MINE and no one else can tell it like I can. (Just like I can’t tell it like anyone else can) 

So I am going to try this again. I am going to write and tell my stories and stop saying “blah, blah, blah” in my head. 

Just promise you won’t think “blah, blah, blah” when you read it. 🙂 

 

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Life, In General

Try as I might, I am finding myself with little time to blog. This summer has been busy, and my time seems to be taken up by dishes (because the dishwasher is broken), meals, laundry, and go, go, go. Our computer decided to die on us, so I am relegated to using the iPad, or my little phone, if I can get either of them out of the hands of my kids. I miss typing on a real keyboard. Touch screen is just not the same.

For fun, we have gone to the beach, gone strawberry picking and gone camping. Okay, well we have done a lot of fun things, but those are the three that stand out in my mind. Church has only happened a handful of times this summer, for good reason. Jack was sick, we went on a mini vacation, I was sick, we helped my cousins move, we went camping. We just went this last weekend and it was like going home.

My husband is still unemployed. Year, it’s hard. Yes, my faith waivers a bit. It’s nice to have him home for the summer and we are trying to make the most of the time we have. It would also be nice for him to have a job. Thankfully between looking for work, helping others and helping me, he stays relatively busy. I think he might be working harder now than he was when he was employed. His “boss” (me) is a little nicer too.

I am now 15 weeks pregnant. This time around is easier, because my kids are older, Chad is home, and I know what to expect. It’s harder, because we have known since 3.5 weeks, the questions I get are more intrusive, and there is that worry about how we will do this again. Somehow these things always work out better than we expect. When friends and strangers find out, they share their stories of surprise babies, and they are inspiring. Although my questions and worries sometimes seem to overwhelm me, I know that as a little old lady, I am going to be thankful for our surprise.

Chad and I will celebrate 14 years of marriage in 3 weeks. After this long though, every day is a celebration. I love waking up to him every day and going to sleep next to him. Of course, I will love it more in 3 weeks when we actually get a night to ourselves.

I have plenty of blogging material in my head, just not as much time as I would like in my life. That should ease up soon. 🙂 I pray for you often. Leave a comment and tell me hi, I would love to hear from anyone, even if I don’t know you.

Now, to get a couple more hours of sleep.