I looked at him and said “What? Why?”, but in that same moment, questions coursed through my mind like blood racing through my veins.
- What about our beach trip, already booked for tomorrow?
- Ugh, will we be able to pay our bills?
- Our house! We went to the brink and back. We almost lost it before. I don’t want to do that again.
- What will we eat?
- Will we be okay?
- Couldn’t he have told me before I spent my money on a haircut? (he said “no”)
I had missed everything he said because of the questions. He continued on”… my insurance is good until the end of the month.”
“Oh, God”, I said. “Your insurance”. Just four days prior, I had to pay out of pocket for one of his prescriptions. $260! I cried when I paid that. It was hard when he had a job and knew we would get more money. I’m not a rocket scientist, but I am pretty sure that we wouldn’t be able to pay that with no money coming in.
Then somewhere, in the recesses of my mind, the bible verse came, soothing my worries and giving me peace.
Matthew 6 – 25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
In that moment, I knew we would be okay.
“We’ll be okay”, I said. “We’ve done this before, we can do it again… Now, what do we do about the beach?”
He sighed and said “We go. We make memories. Worry can wait”.
And we did.
To be continued. 🙂